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Fight against depression: Battle won

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Waking up to dream coming true is all a fairy tale. Working to make your dream come into life is the only way to live a content and happy life. It’s not that everything we wish for is the goal, but the path we chose to make us always remain hopeful is what matters most. I did the same; living in darkness inside a shell does not allow me to see the ray of hope that shines at me every day. I never made an effort to bring out the best in me. Rather I kept on pushing into a comfort zone that finally led me to blame myself for the failures I faced till day.  The failure to stand up for myself, the failure to be happy, the failure to see the art in everything I do. As they say “better late than never”, things came a bit late to me. I realised that I was doing all these things out of my own will then being happy would be my will not that someone else will provide me the happiness. I will find happiness myself rather than expecting it from others. Lesson 1: Happiness Happin

Depression: love, care, trust and (self)help is the best medicine- part 2

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Early morning scene was the same everyday I would be the first get out of bed get fresh and head into kitchen my husband would wake up later get ready to work. While I made his favourite breakfast today hoping he would at least give into bothering about me. When he came down to have breakfast I served him and looked at him hoping he might ask what was it about, rather he was busy with his phone and didn’t look at me, and still I waited. Once done with his breakfast he got up to leave I gave him the list of items I wanted him to pick for weekend, he nodded, walked to the room picked his bag wore his shoes and about to leave. As usual I had packed his lunch and stood at door, today instead of handing over his lunch box I held it for while he looked at me only then I asked if he can get some ice-cream in the evening I really wanted to have some, he stared at me and just nodded. The thought of cream had me through the day, when he came home evening handed over the bag and picked

Depression: love, care, trust and (self)help is the best medicine- part 1

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It is said that every day is a new beginning; with the sun rise the day brings new hope. However it was different with me. I dreaded to see sunrise, the brightness it bought along pulled away the warmth I was happy to be in. I had been living in a shell of my own, with all the daily routine which came down as a burden to me I no more had the vision of colour or happiness within. Every day when the sunset I could feel that my heart is singing its favourite tune, music is the soul of life and my life would wake up only when the light dies. For a person who feared darkness for past 25 years has now embraced it with whole heart. When the movement around slows down life within me wakes up to recognize the colours. Being alone has become luxury and now it is possible only when the day ends as the hustle from the rush of the day has stopped and everyone around have slipped into their dream lands in sleep. But this made me wake up and enjoy my solitude. I had no one to talk to a